I am sitting here trying to figure out why at 22 I have absolutely no friends. Not one. I mean I have my boyfriend but some times I just need someone to talk to other than him.
In high school I had ‘friends’ people I hung out with at school and on occasion outside of school. The thing is there was no substance to any of those relationships. Every person I called a friend I had I very surface level relationship with them. It was never a deep friendship kind of thing where we share are deepest secrets, fears and everything else. Is it because I am so shy and gaurded that even people I hang out I don’t allow them in? Or maybe is it just people don’t want to be my friend. Am I that much of a terrible person that not a single human being wants to be my friend….
I try to stay hopeful in finding a genuine friend, but right now it’s just hard to be so lonely ya know.